Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Wednesday, 18.5.2011
- Self Hurt Of First Love -
When the world turns quiet, Valdis starts to reminisce the past. Those joyful and painful memories... it flows freely into her mind like blood.
It was all thanks to fate which brought them together - able to in the same class, their School live wasn't boring or tough.
"Valerie, what do you want to eat?" asked Valdis.
"I don't know. Perhaps, I do not want to eat." replied Valerie.
Those expression... It hurts Valdis to see her being like this.
"Here, I've gotten a cup of corn with butter for you. Mix it well." said Valdis.
Valerie looked at Valdis surprisingly,
"What about you?"
Valdis forced her smile at Valerie without an answer.
When Valerie was about to finish her cup corn, the School bell began to ring. Living in their own world, they did not notice that everyone was lining up at the parade square, getting ready to head back to the classroom.
Valdis grabbed Valerie's hand and ran to the parade square. In the nick of time, they managed to follow their class que. As time goes by, Valdis's stomach began to growl. All she had in mind was Valarie. Seeing her happy is enough, without knowing the reason why.
There was once when they were waiting for their extra class to start, they sat on the canteen bench. Valerie sat beside Valdis and held her right hand, looking at her beautiful pinky finger.
"One day, I will cut off your pinky finger and replace it with mine." said Valerie.
"I will agree to it but save some money for the operation first!" laughed Valdis.
With Valerie's hand holding onto Valdis's pinky finger, Valerie laid her head on Valdis's shoulders.
This moment... Valdis wished the time could stop. Yet another painful but happy memory for her the next time. When they spend their School life together, Valdis was always the one putting efforts in this relationship. Making Valerie happy no matter what.
When they reached Grade 3, fate decided to separate them. First few days after their lessons, they will meet up with each other. Talk like they never talk before, laugh like they never laugh before.
One thing Valdis did not know was why they stop meeting each other. Soon, they lost the communication of friendship. As years goes by, the word 'strangers' is what they have in mind.
Every break time, Valdis was always alone. She only had a few friends because she don't speak much to people around her. Thinking....... and thinking. Valdis is always in a deep thought. Valerie and her new friends were chatting and laughing happily beside the bench where Valdis sits. She treats Valdis as an invisible tool. All Valdis hope was Valerie, too look at her once again.
Reality is always cruel. Up till now, 13th May 2011, they did not communicate. The only thing Valdis did was adding Valerie in Facebook.
Valdis began to cry when she reminisce those memories. Slitting her wrist, she thought,
"Why?"
"Why must you do that to me?"
"Does our memories even exist to you?"
The worst part was, no one was there to comfort her when she's in pain.
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Labels: Self Hurt Of First Love
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